...it all comes crashing down

SO MANY THINGS TO BLOG ABOUT. this week has been eventful.

1. MICHAEL JACKSON PASSED AWAY
sigh. tribute to michael jackson. its scary. people come and go. (i shall not plunge into my vicious emotional cycle on my blog. that's like shooting myself in my foot) he's awesome lah. so now my 2 favourite songs are eye of the tiger and beat it (: hahah. i love michael jackson.

2. ACJC DSA DRAMA AUDITIONS
wooh. insane! thanks to john, who told me on tuesday night that there was gonna be a drama audition for ACSian theatre on saturday. then i went CRAZY photocopying certs and looking through possible monos and THANKS TO MY DAD who helped me organise the certs etc etc. then i passed it to john who gave it to the school on wednesday morning, and wednesday afternoon (i wasn't home) they emailed me the monos to do (yeah it's given to me :D) and WITH THE HELP OF MY MUM i did the monos. and choreographed my dance (kaya was talking to me the whole time and spamming me with nice smses and quotes ahahhaha thanks kawan :D) and esther helped me get the song to sing in case they asked me to sing a song :P so i was fully prepared (physically, but not really mentally HAHA) by saturday. so i went, and I WAS THE LAST ONE TO BE AUDITIONED. so i waited. and made friends! hahahah 'the beginning of a potential friendship', as vanessa calls it (: from fairfield, st. margs, gan eng seng and PLMGS! ahhahha awesome la. 5 of us. yup. talking and talking and talking. helps to be around HIGH I people so you talk your nervousness away. yup. then when i went in i performed my monologues, danced, had the interview and sang for them.

AND THEY ACCEPTED ME. praise the Lord. haha *cries while typing this* glory be to God. awesome la.

so special thanks to my mum, dad, john, esther, kaya, abby, leeks, and my NEW FOUND FRIENDS:D vanessa, wei ting, olga, timothy. and ACJC for accepting me(: and of course, our heavenly father to whom all this could not be possible. wooh.

3. MY VISIT TO KAMPONG KAMPUR
hahah it was good (: felt pretty much comfortable thanks to abby nyam. went for youth service where abby told me (and i observed) that the speaker looked like sully from monsters inc HAHA and then for 11.30 service where abby told me that the guitarist looked like randall from monsters inc. LOL! then Mr. Lim K Tham spoke (he's from my church-.-) so i go to abby's church and listen to a usual sermon from fairfield. hahahah ironic. :P ohwell. but it was good. THANKS ABBY AGAIN:D

i realised there's only three things to blog. unless you count culminatio. OH YES.

4. CULMINATIO
awesome. just one word for it. ahhaha love sitting with leeks lah. it's like. A YOUNGER SIBLING THING. HAHAHAHAHAH. we sit there and sing the songs (namely music and lyrics, etc) and agree on not understanding certain parts of the play etc. etc. hahahaha and priya was there this time! it was pretty cool. ahhahahaha. she's retarded. SIIIIGH this priya makes weird noises when it's absolutely quiet. ahhahah it was good lah. especially when leeks executed her hair flip. hahahahhahahah! me priya and es asked her :P not bad, leeks! ;D and then abby smsed and said hi to leeks but leeks was trying to think of something funny to say back but took such a long time so i smsed abby that 'li kim doesn't acknowledge your hi.' HAHAHAH! ohwell(:

the performances were fantastic. everyone improved alot. it was really moving and touching and funny and everything. yay.

ALRIGHT. homework. sigh. the vicious cycle (as vanessa calls it) of not doing your homework and then rushing it all and the teachers chasing. WE ARE NOT MEANT TO BREAK THAT VICIOUS CYCLE!

well i am relatively happier this week. i think src carnival did wonders for me :D

now the only unhappy thing is preparint for DSAs. hahahah its STRESSFUL. and i, grace cheah, who hasn't been practicing drama for 2 years (or so), am DSAing into ACJC through (yup, you guessed it) DRAMA. the horror. but more under movement (and relying HEAVILY on the fact that john's the drama vice-captain and everybody loves him and so i'll probably be accepted. and of course, through my talent). yup. so john's just sent me a great big pile of monologues for me to look through. which i shall. starting tonight! :O

other than that my skin's reallyreallyreally dry and it's like gonna peel reallyreallyreally soon (actually my face is peeling. but i refuse to accept the fact that my skin's gna peel and my awesome tanned skin's gna disappear.) so i just rub moisturizer nearly every 4 hours and in the end my skin feels tingly (like it wants to flake off but can't) and my hands feeel extremely gooey.

so looking through those monologues and trying to memorize them will definitely take my mind off the tingly icky feeling. it really feels disgusting. like needles poking into and out of your flesh (lightly, so it itches a bit. but when you don't do anything about it THEN it starts to become painful. lucky i have a high pain tolerance)

damn. the printer hates me. i swear. its screwing up the monologues. the pages are WONKAYEE. sigh. anyway.

i realised i have nothing funny in my life this week to blog about. this SUCKS. :P

ohwell.

OMGGGGGG i loved the weekend.

i did not do any homework AT ALL (except a maths, but that was cos i felt guilty for not doing homework, so i did it with a happy smile on my face :D)

saturday was SRC carnival, i was the extra who's not even in netball but always goes to support anyway. HAHA. i am the self-proclaimed no.1 cheerleader/netball fan (:

so we spent 10 hours in the sun, 7.30 to about 5.30/6, at the padang(: WOOOOOOH it was super awesome la. the total high point of my holidays (that's how boring my holidays were :P) hahaha so me and kaya were the ones not playing so we amused ourselves (when there were no sec1/sec4 games to watch) by sticking grass on ourselves HAHA and shooting with shakeera and fi and towards the end we were too bored so we started plucking blades of grass and comparing how long they were HAHAH (and kaya always wins! it's not fair it's like the longer blades of grass love her or something)

yea the sec 4s got into round 2, and it was super fun watching their games and cheering them on and tanning and getting burnt. HAHA. and when the kawans minus kaya (cos she went for her family dinner) took photos and rode our own version of CALIFORNIA SCREAMING! (i have yet to upload the video on fb) and abby squirting sunblock on leeks' legs and WOOOH

i loved it.

which then again brings me to the point on how i should totally be in netball cos synchro is fail :P and so is GG. HAHAAH. ohwell :S i'll forever stay their numbah 1 fan/cheerleader. HAHA as coach says, me and kaya were the la la dui :P HAHA.

OH YEAH and coach dropped by with samuel and abby started talking to the baby and he vomited. or drooled. but stuff came out of his mouth. and we were all like: ABBY! tsk! AHAH. yeah. superfun la! then abby merry and leeks took jump shots and me and my sis realised that leeks has the :D face before she jumps. HAH go see the photos on FB. its superfunny!

then we gave leeks a ride home (after i went to raffles city and discovered this AWESOME yoghurt-ice cream store ITS SUPER AWESOME!). then me and my sis came home and drank half a bottle of gigantic 100+ and went to bathe and then we had a massive aloevera-smearing session (my mum calls it buttering. HAHA) and then we were having like superalot of fun finding clothes to fit our tanlines.HHAH (it was harder for me cos i was wearing a racerback that day, and my sis was wearing the netball shirt) then we were like screaming and laughing while wearing our clothes and yea. we were late for father's day dinner.

BUT FATHER'S DAY DINNER WAS AWESOME LA! omgggg there's like a salad table (:D:D:D:D:D:D) and a sushi table, and a seafood table, and an indian food table, and hot food table, and a dessert table. THEN (cos i eat REALLY slowly) the guy told us that the buffet was ending at 9.30 and i was only halfway through :( so i started panicking and my blonde moments started surfacing and its really difficult to try to eat when your blonde moments are super alot cos everytime while im bringing the fork to my mouth the food will 80% drop on either the table, the plate, the floor or on me and in the end i think i only at 77% of the food that i took.AHHAHAHA

but yeah it was pretty fun. then we came home and slept. and it was PAINFUL. i never knew my bedsheets were so rough! :P

and church was pretty okay... uncle joseph hit my sunburn and ran away gleefully -.- then me my mum my sis and john went to vivo cos my mum wanted my brother to help her with this lucky draw thing (which isn't really a lucky draw). its like you stand inside this phone booth looking box filled with vouchers and they turn on the fan and you grab as many as you can kinda thing. (they ususally do it with money. hahaha) so yeah. my bro went in and caught and he looked pretty funny :P then my siblings insisted on going to carls' jr for lunch-.- so i ate the salad there (: hahah its pretty nice!

then me and my mum went to walk around cos GSS is so inviting (even though i had a massive sunburn and it hurt SUPERALOT to try the clothes on). HAHA so we went to TANGS and then ted baker and i can't remember. but the most important (cos i bought cool stuff for pretty low prices there) was MANGO! hahah thanks to gracefong for telling me that there's a mango sale :P. so i bought four things :D:D:D cheap thrills (cheap for me cos my mummy paid for it all AHAH) YUPPP i was pretty happy and so i was able to come home and do my homework. LOL without complaining YAYY.

then i wanted to go to the gym but decided against it because sunburn+weights machines=massive pain. cos for the abs on you're like rubbing against the machine material thingy etc. etc. so yeah. i cycled at home on the stationary bike-.- HAHA. then we went out for father's day dinner II (smaller scaled one)

then i wore a spaghetti strap shirt cos i was feeling REALLY hot cos of the sunburn so you could see my tan reallyreallyreally obviously so when we walked into sizzler we sat down and 2 our of the 3 tables that were near us, they stared at me. like STARED. as if i was like. an alien. it really pissed me off. and the lady was walking to the counter to pay and she STARED at me the whole way (till she nearly walked into the wall) and i stared back. and said to my mum 'these people never see sunburn before?!' pretty loudly... loud enough for her to look back and stare at me again

BUT SO WHAT!

stoopid wrinkly skin lady.

but dinner was good. hahah salad ftw! i loooooove salad.

YEPPPP but homework now. gotta do homework! sigh. but i loved the weekend:D

GRACE CHEAH needs a higher metabolism rate.

and i need to finish my homework.

well i was supposed to blog this yesterday (tuesday, 16 june) but i was busy with other stuff so now it's 12:19am, wednesday 17 june but it feels like tuesday so i'm blogging this from tuesday's point of view.

it's been five weeks.

i counted during tuition. exactly 5 weeks since my mum told me when i was sitting at delifrance. she was holding my hand(before she told me) and i had EXACTLY NO IDEA WHATSOEVER. then when she told me i was still normal. it didn't sink in. i could even eat lunch, dammit. (what's wrong with me) and it didn't sink in until wednesday. before bio.

and up till today it's still sinking in. it's like. after it's settled inside me some invisible force or somebody pulls it up again and enjoys the sadism, watching the whole thing sink into me again. and everytime it hurts. it's this whole entire cycle.
(and on top of that i've really gained quite alot of weight. it sucks. yes, it's an issue. my weight is an issue. argh.)
i don't know. im like relying on all those cheap thrills to keep me going, relying on those small spastic moments with my grandma(:, with my sis, relying on i dunno what. i need an epiphany for my faith. i need God?

and i still have those stomach feelings (i think only my sis knows what im talking bout here). it's like... you wanna cry but can't. and your stomach feels as though.... it's trying to commit suicide. WHAT IF...

:S

GRACE CHEAH  is not so happy.